WARNING. Rant journal ahoy.
And if you feel like you deserve this, then you probably did.










I AM IN SO MUCH FUCKING RAGE RIGHT NOW, YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW.
I JUST HATE EVERYONE SO BADLY AND I'M NOT IN THE MOOD FOR ANYTHING.
SO. MUCH. HATE.

SO THIS IS THE PRICE FOR BEING NICE AND CONCERNED, SPENDING SO MUCH TIME TO EVEN BOTHER CARING AND SHIT? WELL, FUCK.

IF YOU HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY TO ME, SAY IT TO ME. I AM SO FED UP OF THIS HYPOCRISY AND SHIT. DO YOU HONESTLY THINK I AM THAT STUPID TO NOT NOTICE? I AM HIGHLY SENSITIVE TO THESE LITTLE THINGS. I KNOW THAT THERE ARE THINGS GOING ON BEHIND MY BACK, BUT WATCHING YOU RUN IS JUST REALLY FUCKING PATHETIC.

JUST BECAUSE I'M IN CHARGE OF SOMETHING, THAT MAKES ME INHUMAN? IGNORANT TO FEELINGS? UN-FUCKING-CARING? WHEN I'M NICE, I AM NICE. I PAMPER YOU, I AMUSE YOU, I LEVEL SHIT OUT, SO THAT EVERY-FUCKING-ONE HAS A GOOD TIME. BUT, WHEN I POINT OUT ERRORS, MISTAKES, ISSUES THAT OBVIOUSLY NEED TO BE CORRECTED AND SHIT, WHAT HAPPENS? LABEL ME A BITCH. SO THAT'S IT? SUDDENLY, I'M THE BAD ONE? WHAT HAPPENED TO ALL THE OTHER GOOD SHIT? OH, NEVER HAPPENED? I'M SURE. I'M SO DAMN SURE IT'S REALLY FUCKING EASY TO PLEASE EVERYONE, AM I RIGHT? BUT, WHAT'S SO HARD ON YOUR PART. ALL YOU DO IS ENJOY THE RIDE, NO?

I CAN'T EVEN EXPLAIN THIS RAGE. AND IT'S NOT EVEN ONE FUCKING ISSUE.

"GOD I CAN'T BELIEVE FUMI DID THAT. I TOTALLY CAN'T ACCEPT HER, BUT LET'S NOT LET HER KNOW. WE CAN DRAW THIS LITTLE LINE OVER HERE TO SEPARATE US. WE'RE STILL FRIENDS HAHAHA BUDDYBUDDY, BUT MAKE SURE SHE DOESN'T CROSS TO OUR SIDE."

"LSKJDA WHY IS SHE FORCING ME. SHE THINKS SHE'S THE ONLY STRESSED ONE. I HAVE FEELINGS TOO. JUST LEAVE ME ALONE ALREADY I WANT TO DIEEEEE."

"OH, FUMI'S SUCH A FUCKING BITCH BAWBAWBAW WE JUST WANT TO HAVE FUN, SHE'S JUST JEALOUS LMFAOOO SHE THINKS SHE'S SO IN CHARGE WHY MUST EVERYTHING FOLLOW HER RULES AND SHIT HAHAHA OH LET'S IGNORE HER OMG WE'RE WAY COOLER!!!!!!!111!11!!!ONEONEELEVEN"

AND THEN?

"W-wha? Of course nothing's wrong! NOTHING AT ALL! ;__________;"

SURE, THE HELL YOU WANNA THINK ANYMORE. CAN'T EVEN HEED A FUCKING ADVICE. CAN'T EVEN BOTHER TO THINK WHAT THE FUCK YOU DID WRONG IN THE FIRST PLACE. IT'S ALL ME ME ME HERE TO ATTACK YOU WITH A FUCKING M-16. DO YOU HONESTLY THINK I LOVE BEING AN ASS? OH, THAT'S RIGHT, I DO. IT'S MY JOB. I LOVE SCREWING UP LIVES. I LOVE WATCHING YOU BE MISERABLE AND LIMIT YOU WITH RULES. THAT WAS ME TRYING TO FUCKING SAVE YOU FROM BEING THE FOOLS YOU ARE, BUT NO. WELL, THAT'S NICE. MAYBE YOU'RE BETTER OFF AS FOOLS ANYWAYS.

JUST BECAUSE THINGS DON'T GO YOUR WAY, YOU THINK I'M OUT TO GET YOU. YOU THINK? WELL, FUCK YOU AND YOUR IGNORANCE. I'M TIRED OF HELPING. I'M TIRED OF TELLING YOU WHAT YOU SHOULD BE DOING WHEN YOU YOURSELF KNOW WHAT NEEDS TO BE DONE. I'M TIRED OF BEING AROUND FRIENDS WHO CAN'T EVEN ACCEPT ME FOR WHO I AM. I'M TIRED OF SUGARCOATING MY WORDS TO SAVE YOUR BAWBAWBAW FRAGILE HEARTS FROM GETTING INSULTED. AND I AM SO FUCKING TIRED OF BEING YOUR FUCKING MOTHER.

YOU WANNA KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE? GO ON AND TAKE MY PLACE.

OH, BUT WAIT. CAN YOU?
OBVIOUSLY NOT.
YOU CAN TRY, BUT YOU'LL NEVER GET THERE.

SO, TO WRAP THIS UP, THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR BEING SO APPRECIATIVE ALL THIS WHILE, MOTHER FUCKERS.

I. HATE. PEOPLE.
GOD THIS IS MAKING ME SO UPSET.
I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY I STILL BOTHER.

BUT, DON'T BE SURPRISED IF YOU GET A PM FROM ME THESE NEXT FEW DAYS BEING NOT-SO-ME. BECAUSE I MIGHT HAVE BLOWN MORE FUSES THAN I ALREADY HAVE AND WOULD LIKE TO GREET YOU WITH A LITTLE HELLO.

Fuck this shit.

I'm about to just spend my birthday with a fuck load of ice cream.
Because Friday the 13th is fucking amazing and I don't need your fucking drama.

And if you dare disturb me on the 14th, I will stab you over and over with my fucking stylus.





Done.